Yesterday my wound care doctor looked at the X-rays and com[pared them to others from earlier. He told me what I already knew. I was going to have my toe amputated. Then I had a some really strange feelings. These feelings were very different from when I was first told I would lose a toe. I had no sadness and no feeling of lose. Nothing that non might expect from news of that nature.
No, I have been struggling with some things that I have been trying to change in my life for quite some time. Over the last few weeks those things have changed. Although physically my health is quite poor, spiritually my health has never been better, to be honest. So when I was told that I was going to lose a second toe all I could think about was how grateful I was that the Lord had helped me grow. Whe I had a second alone in closed my eyes and said a quick prayer thanking my heavenly father for the positive changes he had helped me make recently. I love him so much. Every bad thing that happens in our lives he can use to make a good thing.
The end is I have no fear or apprehension or sadness for what is about to come. I am at peace with it and know that the one who knows everything is in charge.